ok. 1 week of slacking was over, and just when i want to get down to work i get attacked by the flu bug. bleargh. Hate being sick. the air has a wierd smell to it, my tastebuds go wonky... i essentially feel like i'm living in a tissue box. bearrrrrrghhh.. i ate cheesecake and i thought i was eating panadol. =( oh. the pain!

on another note. debater's gathering on Sat was wonderful despite the short time i spent there ^^. food was good, manit was perfectly entertaining and above all, i got to see adri =). Though Candice i didn't get to see =( oh well. sadder part is. no one got to eat my tofffee apples!!! =( but adri said they tasted nice. *sob* and the digicams! ohhh.. the insensitive population. *wail wail* but its no matter =)

Quidam rocked!!! it was breathtaking!! =) absoulutely.

aarrghhh.. ok ok. back to school. Got prelim grades back. can't say i'm happy with it. But according to daniel, he thinks that is ok for a four subber, before i point out other superbrains out there are getting AABB, and i have a lousy ****. so yeah. i'm obviously waaaaaay behind. aaah wellx. at least i'm now inspired to work. so yeah. i willl strive!!!

mmm... its hard to make urself not miss someone.

~* take a quick break and get back to where you're supposed to be

quickie

The chains tighten
cutting into the bruised flesh
making each breath taken more
strangled
than before
She writhes and wriggles
desiring just that much more
freedom

~*let me breathe just a little while more

restriction

I think uninhibited conversation is the best thing that could ever happen between 2 people. Absolute freedom of conversation. No worries, no insecurities, just pure laughter and good old sharing.

Rare enough as it is, once you've gotten a taste of it, rarely anything else can make you ever feel that normal conversations are as fulfilling as these.

so yeah. I'm fulfilled. In many many ways =)

~* take me by the hand and take me someplace new

fulfilment

i declare myself dunce. Why you may ask?

simple. Larissa wants to do lit, said she couldn't today in school and then realises at home that her text is HAPPILY SITTING IN HER LOCKER.

shoot me, please. =_=

inefficacy

thought bubble one:

Oh well. School is super slack this week, but not that i mind. =) kinda need a breathing break. Figures. I said i'd do some work today, but when i sat down to really look at my notes i ended up going 'No, not yet' and happily plonked myself on my bed instead. pfffbt. i'm such a contradiction.

Thought bubble two:
Mmmmmm.... was reflecting today that if i consider my friend a jerk, but a nice guy anyway, does that make it correct to say we're not friends because to a certain level i recognise that he is a despicable sot. Or is it just recognition of a character flaw??mmmmm...

Thought bubble three:
I kept telling myself to not succumb to my heart's temptations. somehow this is SO not working out. I shouldn't be going out! not at this point of time for that person anyway. mmmmmmphhh.. i'll chain myself to the house soon. Like just zoom home and not try to think abt it. (somehow i feel this plan will never be implemented) waaaaargh. ok ok. SELF- CONTROL... i have to have to learn this. =_=

thought bubble four:
mmphhh.. Tis not fair.. i'm literally the only sot that seems amazingly free nowadays T-T nobody wants to pay some attention to me. My sis just walked out in a pet and mummy's dating. grah. And when i'm busy they drag me around anyway. WHERE IS THE LOGIC T-T??? On the bright side, i'm going to watch Quidam on Sat, and there's the debate gathering too ^^V Larissa is happy. Very very happy *happy dance*

mmmm.... ok. Larissa obviously went through a thought emptying process. Now i can go along being an airhead... wheeeeeeeeeeee.... =)

~* Pop! there they go!

bubble bobble babble

went to the beach today. Rather nice experience. I love the sea... somehow the cool breezes that frequent the place just manage to easily lift away the burdens off my shoulders, carry my pains away with its gently carassing fingers, The waves gently thrashing in the background tell the stories of years gone past, softly, gently cooing the shore into submission, making nature's works reality.

Feeling the cool waves run over my toes and swirl about my feet brought me back to earth again, reminding me gently that i have enough to be thankful for, more than what i ever expected to have, or deserved to. It took away my clogged up thoughts and feelings that somehow made me feel for a while like i couldn't breathe. sometimes i get annoyed with myself, for thinking too far back and retaining memories i shouldn't. I let them wash away with the sea today, let the waves take away the pains of my past. Enough is enough, i've learnt my lessons, and i reflected on it extensively. It can't hurt me anymore, i'll let my wounds heal.

today was a happy happy day. There's no real way to describe the simple contentment that's settled within me, its just... fulfilling. Its a feeling that i'd never want to stop feeling, nor would i give up for anything else in the world.

~* a gentle breeze that blows all your troubles away

oceanic blue

i was lying down on Thel's bed today in the afternoon, after my nice afternoon snooze( YES! the opportunity to legally slack without feeling guilty!) and i was looking at the light that cast in from the bathroom window which fell in a glorious slant across the dining room floor. The tiny dust particles caught the light at odd angles and as they fell, made pretty glitters that gently wafted in the soft afternoon breeze. it was very very pretty. i just lay there and stared, wondering how angles actually make or break a view. its a lot like life, when you learn to look at things differently, you get less affronted with things. You could even find the beauty of it. I guess that also applies to gracefully accepting criticism, and changing in response to it. sometimes there are things about your person that you fail to see, that others do. And usually they are your best reflectors, in that sense.

ah. But i digress. the soft gems of dust just wafted gently out of my sight, down to the ground where they lay as short rememberences of that momentary shine, that glint taht made them somewhat mroe special than they truly were. i guess in that sense, i kind of got reminded of our relative insignificance in life. We try so hard to make a name, carve a niche, yet even then, for those who do make it, all we're left with is a name - rarely appreciated, perhaps occasionally held in loving memory. Memory. I guess that's what we truly strive for. To be remembered. a response of that insecurity of what our life or existence truly is, or means.

~*gently wafting to the ground,soft gems of the most unique kind

dust

ok. this song has been on the in house radio long enough, but i guess its mostly what i feel, so yeah. oh well.

Vonda Shepard - I Only Want To Be With You
Lyrics written by Mike Hawker & Ivor Raymond

I don't know what it is that makes me love you so
I only know I never want to let you go
'Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me
It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
Look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this
It's crazy but it's true
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together honey I don't care
'Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we've met you've had a hold on me
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just want to be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together honey I don't care
'Cause you started something can't you see
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me

No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

stuck in my head

lol. a little something off Jeremy A.'s blog taht he did and i'm supposed to post here. But i guess it doesn't make sense if i provide the context, so yeah. context first, tehn next set of numbers is the reply.

context:
1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written!

Reply:
1) cheongsam grrrrl with swimmer shoulders!
2) nine days - absolutely
3) ice-cold strawberry/ starfruit
4) we still need to get together one day ):
5) the girl with the sweetest smile at some early early rmun meeting. your smile obliterated all our wariness, and we striked up the most impromptu alliance :P
6) a dolphin
7) how long have.. ah well :P

figures. i was hoping it wouldn't be the red dress that identifies me. oh well. and jeremy, u didn't finish asking ur question.... is that supposed to be part of the deal?

~* each memory that forms the patchwork quilt.

lol

At this point in time i feel like the luckiest girl in the world. really =)

Thank you for every single moment of pure bliss that you've given me.

The rose
satin soft petals
smooth to the touch
exquisite, beautiful
a silent reminder of each
blissful moment spent with
you

Exuberance

wheee.. ok ok. me being the procrastinator that i am decided to pop online to do some leisurely activity ( i convinced myself that i wouldn't go chat and all that cos no one i want to talk to would be online at this point in time, so i wouldn't be running off for too long)

Anyway, prelims are underway.Horrific horrific period. My life is reduced to - eat sleep drink mug eat sleep drink mug. I want my life backk!!!! *wails*. ok nvm. i'm just being a bit overdramatic.

Mmmm.. had interesting conversations with Daffy for the past few days - about friendship and what would be a best friend. i guess its true. Much as we long for human companionship that is exclusively close etc, its rare that these things happen - like when we find someone whom we find understands us and all that. oh well. I guess that's why they become so treasured to begin with.

ok ok. back to mugging. I have to become chummy with econs again.

sigh. this is bad. My socialising has been reduced to communing with textbooks. nooooooooooooooooo...

~* rare is the mirror true in its reflection

breather

I saw a pretty little bird outside my window in the middle of econs. It had a pretty pretty blue stripe on its black head, sleek white feathered chest and blue tipped wings. It was so pretty and unique, i just sat there in awe at its majestic splendour. Then it struck me how certain people are like how i described this bird, not in its actual sense of course, but in the beauty and splendour that bird represents. I guess in that sense beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and i know certain people would never agree with me that the bird was really that pretty (my sister for one just rolled her eyes at my uncontrolled gushing abt it). I guess sometimes people just are the way they are to us cos we see them as such, not just because externally they are beautiful, but also because of what we know inside as well. SOmetimes it works the other way. a certain person may look really really pretty at first, but as we know them we realise how ugly they can be inside, and it sort of rubs off how we look at their physical appearance as well. Oh well. Forgive my ramblings.

That much from a bird who spent but a fleeting moment at my windowsill. hmmm.

~* beauty that can be found through my rose-tinted glasses

turtles

*at home( while back ago)*

Tv is on, Larissa is happily seated in front (15 min break) Scene with many snowflakes wafting down screen plays on TV.

Larissa: *squeals happily* OMG. The New Harry potter Trailer!! YAY!!! *grabs ethel reflexively* Harry potter! Harry potter!*bounces on couch*
*promptly Willy Wonka's chocolate factory looms into view*

Larissa and ethel: ......

Lyn(laughs at the extremely obvious error) : hahahahahahahaha

Interesting bits of convo i had earlier...

*** on the phone***

Larissa: *groans* i can't do econs.... i don't argue in economical terms! i can't seem to ever do. i incorporate economic arguments instead... AAaarghhh..

Marcus: oh well. *earnestly* The science students are having a field trip with it. They're really having it easy.

Larissa: ... you mean... Field =DAY= right?

*epiphany*

Marcus: oh! ok.

Larissa: ....

*** at home***
Larissa: *looks at bunch of caramalised things on table* what's that?

Ethel: Toffee Apples!

Larissa: Really? *takes one and bites into it* hey. tastes nice. who made it?

Ethel: *beams* me! I....

Larissa: *promptly spits apple back into sink* are you sure its safe??

Ethel: *crestfallen* thanks a lot. i was only going to tell you i helped add the sugar

Larissa: *mournfully as apple slides down sink* I want my apple back!!!

~* oh the joys of communicating

snippets

what i'd thought i had lost, and never would recover, suddenly came back to me again.

The joys, the warmth, the complete state of balance that had been in my life prior to JC has returned. And its not because of just anything. Its because of a special someone.

i'm really happy now. I think there's nothing more i can ask for about the state of things. Really.=)

on another note, i found out that sometimes in life, its only when people are gone that you actually truly miss them. i miss my sister. she went camping. now the house is super quiet!! i miss being bugged!!!! ok. nvm. that really sounds like an odd thing to miss. But oh well. miss her. sigh.

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle. Its made up of many many pieces that makes it feel complete, i think i just found that last piece to complete mine. wheeee....

~* like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle that paint a pretty picture

return

the sun shines in its
infinite splendour.
yet still incomparable to the
pure bliss of being with
you.

Somehow or other, i feel happy. just happy. extremely happy for that matter.3 things really made my day: good history paper(good as in i remembered my stuff), good catch up time with wei wei, and more importantly, i actually got to see you. That just added the perfect touch to everything else. which is why if i was ever asked what i think would define absolute perfection, i'd say it would be you =)

i'm in a really happy mood today. lalalala...

***later***

oh. me and wei found this cute cute antique shop cafe( which we thought was a shop, but was not). Must go there and eat one day we agreed. it looked so quaint!!! (at this point i wish i cld have a camera then to take a picture of it. grah. )

~* take me away to the place where dreams come true

bliss